Why is it that i'm telling you the truth? Because i believed that you will understand me.. All this time, i wished that we did not, and never argued. Yes, i do know why you feel this way. It's because you don't understand me enough. I don't want a relationship whereby my boyf. can't even understand what i want. Yes, i did thought that i had fully gotten over him, but not? Is it my fault for liking him? I liked him before liking you, this fact will never change.
My heart really hurts when you say me loving you is all a fake. It's not the truth at all. But why? Why are you doubting my love for you? It might not be 100%, but it's still the most among everyone. And it's the most unique.. I just want to let go of you, let you have freedom.. But you don't let me have mine? Whatsup about it? I had never stopped you from talking to others, but you're here, trying to stop me and ask me to ignore them? There's no reason that i can't talk to others even when you're my boyf. I don't want to change myself just because of you.
Maybe we shldn't even have started, so i can never bring pain to your life... I guess i'm unreasonable at times, liking some other people other than you.. Yes, go ahead and hate me... I don't wish to care anything in life anymore. If only that i can forget everything, and start anew... Sorry for breaking your heart. I don't know what will our future be like, but i really wish that i can be with you forever? But i seems to just can't tolerate you anymore.. but what can i do? ): Remember i texted you asking if you reached home alr? Why did i did that, because i care for you... I want you to be safe....
Lastly, i hate love. I don't want to love anymore.. It just leads me to getting more hurt eventually. Thanks twinny and peggy for consoling me. I will move on with life, no matter what happens...
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Went out of house and waited for bus at 6.38am. 2 bus came, one 198, one 174. And both full. And after that, 15~20minutes no bus came. 240 arrived but still it's full of ppl. Finally squeezed into bus 174 which arrive at the time of 7.05am sharp, i guess, with weikang. He was carrying his trombone, which he borrowed from his school band. He said he borrowed back his instrument once a week. Hardworking max? Unlike me, who only brought back my clarinet for twice this year.. He say his school band was practicing and playing syf set piece 'Memories of friendship' . I want to play that too .__. . Maybe should practice with him sometimes :p .
shall end my post here, cheer up twinny, i will always be there for you,
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