Lately, i realized your attitude towards me have changed.. You cared less for me, gave me annoyed face... I've always treated you as my good friend since primary school, but why..? I helped you put your shirt into your bag... I waited for you... Carried your bag for you... But i guess you don't appreciate that... When i was about to pass you your bag, you showed me an annoyed face... Am i that annoying..?
Have been crying over little things these days, i felt so terrible. I'm going to break down soon. What will happen to us? I've caused you enough troubles, i wants to put it to an end... I wish i could just start a new life, peacefully, happily. Had band practice today, and i kept going toilet to wash up when i felt like crying... However, i controlled it.. Till now... I promised to myself yesterday that i will stay strong, never to cry again... I pretended to smile in front of friends, but my heart is actually tearing itself apart..... What can i do..? I'm really tired of dying, i actually wanted to get banged by the car after band, but claudia pulled me away..... I really don't want to disappoint people who really cared for me... But i asked myself something, can i ..?
He lost his voice, because of me.. I'm just so selfish.. I don't wish to let him go.. Why? I really don't understand myself, likea seriously... Just what do i want? I don't know what to say to him, to make me forget me or something... I don't want to hurt anyone... I'd rather hurt myself rather than any of my friends...
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